These troubled days

So I know it's been a hard time for me since my mother passed on march first and things have changed drastically but I...I think I'll make it. I met a guy about 6 months ago, his name is mike and I love him more now then ever and I really think he's the one for me...now, it isn't like me to say that or to even think about "love" but this, this is different. Were still living together out here in Sheridan Wyoming but we have plans. Now I know what your thinking, it sounds cliche but we do! We plan to save our money up over the next few months and possibly rent a car and go stay with him at his mothers house for a while. He says we can buy a house out there for like 600$ a month or whatever, he also says that there are a lot of job opportunities out there which is exactly what we need. I seriously can't believe my recent job let me go, it was my coordinators fault that she got the dates to train me mixed up. Their going to pay me the rest of what they owe me.! Anyways so my boyfriend went to this bar called rails with a guy named roger that lives in the building and it feels like they've been gone forever, I thought it really bothered me that he got to go out and stuff but the more I think about it, I think I'm just a little jealous considering I'm only 19, legally I'm not suppose to drink but ya know, whatever.  I just hope this doesn't happen all the time, or atleast not when we move...I hate being stuck here alone, watching movie after movie, it's really boring...I guess it's good though, that we get some time apart to breath and actually miss eachother....well it's going on midnight and I'm going to be a buzz kill or party pooper or whatever you want to call it and get off here and go smoke a cigg, take a hot shower, lay down, and wait for another day to start and roll by again. Goodnight peeps!!